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John 16:33
"These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world."
The Anatomy of Surrender
Why is loving you such a difficult challenge?
Why does it take me to the brink—make me unhinged?
God created us to need one another.
Amid this fighting, my heart is torn asunder.
Relationships are more trouble than they’re worth,
I find; I’d rather be alone on this earth.
I know a cord of three is not quickly broken,
And being one in mind is holy and golden.
But I am so mad. I want to sit here and stew.
I really don’t want to be grateful for you.
Navigating this life alone is lunacy;
God, change my heart to long for community.
Why are You giving me this season of hardship?
What exactly in me are You trying to equip?
I’m not looking for character or endurance;
Breezy, happy, and tranquil is my preference.
I know I should rejoice in my suffering,
And that there is a hidden joy worth discovering.
I know how you use brokenness to transform.
But my wicked heart does not quickly conform.
My hopes and dreams can’t be so easily dismissed,
So I really don’t want to be grateful for this.
Help me see difficulties from Your perspective.
Help me to submit fully to Your directives.
Why is my testimony left unspoken?
Why did You make me so weak, fragile, and broken?
How can I be of any service to You,
When my fear of failure can be plainly viewed.
I’m told, “Do not fear. Be bold and courageous.”
But I am not strong. I am not tenacious.
I long to stride forward with no trepidation.
But my walk gets suspended by hesitation.
Fearlessness and strength are what I want the world to see;
I don’t want to be grateful for how You made me.
Remind me again how You knit me together,
Your strength is displayed at the end of my tether.
Why are You letting me be so out of control?
All this pressure on me is taking its toll.
I just need a break! It’s been so relentless.
The task list is growing. It’s seemingly endless.
It seems impossible to cross one thing off my list.
My shoulders are tense from the deadlines I’ve missed.
I know Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light,
But my heart’s still heavy in the darkest of night.
I want to control this with laughter and leisure;
I don’t want to be grateful for all this pressure.
Teach me to fully rest in Your sufficiency,
And humbly submit to You my deficiency.
Redefining Abundant Life: This poem exposes the friction between our human desire for ease and Christ's call to be obedient and surrender to Him. True spiritual abundance is discovered not when life's demands vanish, but when we stop fighting our limitations and anchor our security in His finished work.
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